In The Dark
An Addition To Prayer.
Plenty of us have heard the phrase, “what goes on in the dark” and the rest can be finished from there. It’s always about the deeds of the unjust, unfair and unwilling. It’s always about exposure to the wrongdoings and suspected liars…
Have you ever considered the faithful?
Yesterday, I was afraid of something. It was small, but it was the turning point of an uncomfortable moment of frustration. It felt bigger than it was and while I made myself aware of that, I still believed this was something that needed to happen. In my moment of frustration, someone came and removed it. When I fell asleep, I was with my Gran in her room like a child. I was in the dark. This was a literal darkness that she didn’t acknowledge because I’m not afraid of it. I never have been. It’s often when I recharge best. Despite how dark it was, I saw her clearly. I saw her white gown. I saw her in the glow of stars that made themselves known through the blinds of her window. I saw her and she asked, “what upset you?”
I told her it was something stupid but that I’ve got it.
she said, “I know. I wanted to check on you. You always have it.”
Then that was it. I sat in the glow from her window, feeling safe, until I woke up to see a glow from my own. The Sun. In my dark room, the Sun was starting to breakthrough.
Now, I’m sitting in the dark typing this out.
Dwelling never felt like an action worth committing to…
What happens when your internal lights are flickering? What happens when your home, that is your body, feels unkempt? What happens when you’ve put yourself away to focus, not on the rise and fall of life, but on the steadiness of your own?
For many, it’s not when they pray the hardest, it’s when they believe the most. It’s knowing the rising Sun will come and peek through the curtains of worry or the debris of construction.
It’s certainty in that what was done in the dark will come to light and those beliefs hug you back. Those prayers repeated in the absence of shining rays will be fruitful. It’s exposure to your own eyes that all of what you done when no one was looking, all of that work and tears, will be granted appreciation. Not just from the crowd, but from you.
The reveal is for you. Always.
Building, praying, tidying, resting, and mini celebrations filling your every step of the way in your unseen hour.
When the time comes, you’ll see what happened in the dark is beautiful.
Stay certain of yourselves and your work. Stay certain of your work and your roots.
The dark is dormancy. Privacy. Strength.
Use it like any other tool to feed.